I’m back from Berlin. It was absolutely freezing but it was lovely to see my friends and meet their little baby boy, who is a total cutie.
Despite the cold, my Frenchman and I still went out and about and visited Berlin. It’s a great city. It has a very cool vibe, people are who they are, follow their dreams.
Between my Frenchman and I, it was fine a lot of the time. But we still argued. Stupid things – like him taking never-ending photos while I stood there waiting. Like me feeling like I invited him for things (as in paid) and he never invited me back. Like I got excited over something cool I saw and he said he’d seen it. Like he made fun of me in front of my friends and I said later that it hurt my feelings and he said I had no sense of humour. Like me suggesting that I could give him a few pointers on his English instead of him pointing and saying an abrupt “What’s that?” and he said his English was fine and I was overly polite.
It’s hard. But I need to take my time with this. I need to see things clearly. I’m getting there, believe me.
I read somewhere that sometimes your boyfriend can criticize you for the very things that other people love in you. I find that very relevant.
If someone is bleeding your soul and spirit dry, is it really worth it?